Monday, June 16, 2008

my best

The time that I have left
is all I have of worth
I lay it at Your feet, Lord
It's less than You deserve
And though I've little strength
And though my days are few,
You gave Your life for me
So, I will live my life for You

I haven't seen her in ages, she took so good care of me before.
but today when I saw her, I couldn't even remember her name. We talked briefly and caught up for awhile.
before she left, her embrace said it all. I felt total warmth and that love she always gives.

Friday, June 13, 2008

on this island I promise to build Your temple...

...was it good enough?

I will learn from this

Regina Spektor - The Call


this song springs up at the last part of Narnia and is also the best part of the movie- why? because it shows the 4 kids having to leave... forsake a life of greatness and kingship, to accept going back into a world where they are lowly, to accept going back into a life of drudgery again- From kings to a mere highschool students. It is a big fall.
yet, they still do it, after talking to the lion. Isn't it what gave them the conviction to go back? The talk with Jesus, as He tells you that it is best to step off that great life that you're living and so comfortable with, where everything is for you... to step off and take the plunge into that unknown passageway that leads into a life that's not very appealing.
I have to plunge into something I dread. But He knows what is best.

walking into a rich house, seeing the sports cars and the many, many other well-priced cars... they could build so many churches with those things! They could've used it for a greater, far more worthwhile cause.

if i can't be a missionary, let me be a martyr
I will become even more undignified than this.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

botak is temporary, handsome is forever...

the saying amongst the bald men who live on the island.

Through all this Job did not sin nor did he blame God.
no matter what, I want to be able to say this confidently too.
...temple building is hard work.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

tears

what have i done
they all hate me now...

how did it end up like this
to feel wrath from one is bad enough
but to feel the wrath of so many people
gut wrenching

how now?
how can a rejected person be used?

are You still with me