dear God, please do not leave me when the world does. please do not leave me hanging with doubts and questions when the world does. please do not leave me, even though I am so flawed and insecure.
sorry if I had muttered words of anger and insult towards You when I feel injustice, a lack of (perceived) control in my life, doubt and a bleak outlook. It just shows how faithless I really am, and how strong my trust is toward you. I think I had stop believing in your plans and paths. God, if your plans lead to that which brings me destruction, please let my destruction by utterly glorifying for your name's sake. My spiritual amnesia has led me to forget that one of Your promises was providence. Simply that you would supply all my needs.
help me to remember first and foremost that I am your son through Christ, then a flawed, insecure and normal human. I am missionary, then a corporate worker. I am of you, in the world. In all my circumstances, You are right there, Your spirit is with me.
can you help me each day to surrender more of my heart to you. If possible, do it within a day. Can my life just be totally devoted toward you. All because I am your son who abides under the shadow of your wings. Without You I am nothing. Fill me with your Spirit. when things do not go in my way, please grant me grace, peace and serenity.
