Matt wrote:

On Tuesday May 02 2006...
"What happens when you don't get what you want
Wow, the universal question. The question that often determines how happy our lives are. Different people deal with it differently, and very often, depending on how they deal with it, they lead wonderful or miserable lives all the same.

So what do you do when things don't go your way. It could be your UNI applications not working out the way you planned, or your relationship crumbling, or your simple anxiety on what to do with your life. What do you do when things seem to fall apart, and when stuff you ve hoped in SO much just breaks down after one conversation or after one letter. What happens when your home, as a concept, is desecrated and you find yourself running away. What happens when, overcome by guilt, you wallow in ur predicament and cry yourself to sleep every night for almost half a year. What happens when you feel so insecure, you hide from people. What happens when you cannot go home, but if you don't, you re trapped in a military camp. What happens when you injure yourself, and lose your self esteem. What happens when people tell you you re not good enough. what happens when you tell yourself you re not good enough. what happens when people just let you down. what Happens when there is really really no one left, who cares or knows what you re going through. what happens when you tell yourself no one cares.What happens when you couldnt care to explain stuff to the few people who cared, cos its too complicated. What happens when you feel so ashamed and guilty of something you ve done that you hide from people and convince yourself that you re gonna have to go away to another land. What happens when you ponder suicide, like for real. what happens when u ponder suicide and then acknowledge that you arent brave enough to end it, thereby completely leavin you solutionless. What happens and where do you go?

What would you do, when you ve hurt people so deeply, that they would be scarred for life.
What would you do when you feel theres no way out of the shite thats piling on.
what would you do when you find that nothing you re doing is gonna help you.
what would you do when someone you loved so much doesnt feel the same way, and you just feel like your heart was ripped out and trampled on
what would you do when you decided that you couldnt face the world or move on
what would you do when you realised you are truly a good for nothing
what would you do when you realised you are achievement-less
what would you do when you realised that you have nothing going for you.
what would you do when you realised that you club,smoke, drink and indulge ur lust almost daily.
what would you do when you ve found that you are slave to so many things, including ur prisoning desires.
what would you do when everyone else around you seems to have it better, or IS better than you.
what would you do when everything you apply for rejects you and tells you that you re stupid
what would you do if even the people you thought would believe in you tell you your limits

Well, idunno about you but, about a year ago, Itried this one way after exhuasting every other, and its been amazing.
Ask me about it please, i m dying to tell you!! I REALLY AM DYING TO TELL YOU. like...i m exploding here."