as time goes by

I feel so confused.
not a day goes by w/o having thought of you.
where do I stand, why do I feel like this?

it feels so liberating, finally to have released this- made known.
yet at the same time, nothing seems to have changed.
the fact is, I really do miss you. period.

hong Kong is beautiful.
(but so are you...)

ok that's about enough.
mind out.
...
it all doesn't make sense anyway
thinking rationally, I'm probably the only one feeling this light-headedness of a yearning desire. mutuality doesn't exist.
I was meant to fail.
WHY- I had probably crafted a fairytale out of nothing.
I am just too thick-skinned and, I do not understand the signs or lack of it.