resilience

I just realized... my blog has stood the test of time-- where so many blogs have risen and died since its inception, this site still stands and receives all my emotional rants, riddles and nonsense till today. SUGOI :D :D :D

its almost 3am at night and in case I look back on this post and wonder why the heck I am up so late, here is something that will clearly refresh the mind:

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HAHAHAHA, retarded ain't it. sure looks like another stupid riddle, but its simple recollection- I've spent all these hours simply reading up on computer parts and the potential of overclocking a system....
...sometimes, I can understand why my parents worry for me and my lack of social life and even the fact that I am hopeless with girls. But a very (very) lovely person told me... relax. She meant it and I know it'll all be good in the end.

its approaching 3am, its probably at this time of the night when one actually feels the bliss and lightheaded feeling that signals & says the body is at peace... Peace, don't we all yearn for it? A day, a life without that internal conflict within. Just feeling that fullness and grasping at the realization that sometimes life has to be lived for something greater than oneself for it to be fulfilling. But alas, when we awake and the tide of the world comes sweeping at us again, this ideal becomes forgotten, or rather, we just shelf it at one corner saying that we will entertain it another time.
but really, that period of bliss and that simple idea was actually the most important and meaningful concept that came fleeting into your mind...

stay the same

this is me right now,
but next time we meet
a couple of days...
months...
years...
that me wouldn't be the same anymore
can I just still be me all the way... I know its impossible, everything would be different.
even you wouldn't be the same anymore.
but its all for the better... isn't it?
I am such an emo... why do I have a heart of a girl inside me. weaknesssss

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i wish
i could understand everyone's culture
and language
it'd be so cool

i guess. but i remember- universal language= love -aggie !

God you're so unfair

why do so many fine young ladies that serve you struggle to find a guy
and those that do aren't the best of characters, though they look physically attractive
does it all just show...that you care not for external beauty?
does the outward appearance really mean NOTHING?
if it means so little to you... then can you teach me also to feel the same way

sometimes I hate myself- if only my mind could think thoughts that were higher and closer to your heart, rather than struggling and contending in the worldly hierarchy of needs.
ok ranting out...

melbourne. japan. down

hero dreams

wish i could just build a boat, where everybody within it... is safe, saved and full of joy.

its not where you want to be, but where God calls you to be that matters.
sometimes, I just wish a audible voice from above would tell me whether I am heading the right way, or perhaps nudge me in the correct direction if I'm straying from it. I wish, I could travel all year long... stress-free

Serenity Prayer:
God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

at the end of the day, even though I feel out of place and lost, wishing I were somewhere else- its where You want me to be that matters